I wonder if one day... The walls will answer back ?
Posted: Friday, 13 June 2008 |
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Oh FiiS, don't get too downhearted. You sound like you're having a bad spell and things are getting on top of you. Just hang on and you'll feel better, meanwhile virtual good wishes to you, and hope things brighten up soon.
Jill from EK
you sound really down - sometimes its not the others round you, its the vibes you give off. gosh!...that sounded mean! I occasionally had bad days when the kids were small - and it is horrible to feel no one else cares. but the best way to deal with it is to get through the bad day as best you can, and try hard to make tomorrow better. in other words - immerse yourself in horrible chores your gonna hate anyway, an plan something nicer for tomorrow.
scallowawife from in the book of wisdom....
I am sure there is nothing wrong with you, FI. Do some baking, play with the children, do some art work , enjoy the outdoors - try to develop a strategy for having more local contacts. Read a book (or two), sing. Coll is not much bigger, but Nic and Squidgy seem to keep busy. # About the twitchers - to heck with them. Nobody asked them to fight to get to Fair Isle. # Take care, FI. Clearly ibloggers like you. There must be a reason.
mjc from NM,USA
Hello there! I've lurked on your blog for a while now, interested because I moved to Orkney at about the same time as you moved to the Isle..I'm waving madly from Stronsay - coo-ee... :-) Guess what? It's raining! Shall we share a virtual cup of coffee and a piece of cake and I'll show you my knitting. Five years on the needles and still staring at me reproachfully. I'm a sloooow knitter.. Good job I don't do it for a living. Anyway, just wanted to say hello, you sounded sad, I hope it passes soon.
Limpet from Stronsay
((FiS)) can't you go out to visit people or invite another mum back for tea and a blether after dropping the children off at school, what has happened to your textile course?? are you still doing it?? hope you are feeling better now,
island threads from lewis
Just because you live in a remote community, does not make you socially unacceptable ... !! I used to go for whole weeks without seeing anyone at all, and still do when I'm 'on retreat', and I always find that those times are like exercise for your capabilities ... a workout for what's inside ... If you're a bit low, it can be a jog too far though ... and if you don;t have those inner reserves, then you need to nurture them ... How to do that will not fit in a comment space ...! Seems to me that Robyn needs to understand that just because he doesn;t like wet and windy, doesn;t mean his mum can;t be allowed to 'get on' ...! Everyones worrying about the price of things, and on an island that equates to winter and heating ... I know it sounds trite, but I really do find that the best way around that is simply not to think of it till it comes around ... You can still carry on burying your nuts, as every good squirrel does, waiting for the winter, but worrying is simply the most draining activity known to man, or woman ... :-) it takes all of your positive energy and leaves you scared and tired ... it takes time to practise not doing it, when its not going to do you any good ... but is well worth nurturing ... :-)
soaplady from always try to keep it in proportion
Small islands have edges that hem you in. I find the hardest thing is not being able to drive ten miles and feel I still belong (it's my shopping centre/high school/local graveyard) but I don't know the next person I see, or their kids, or what car they drive or what their last car died of. The best thing about IB is I can choose which blogs to read, and which I can't be bothered with, and no-one else knows or makes a judgement on my virtual friends. Meanwhile, you don't have to like 100% of them 100% of the time, any more than they have to like you, but don't let them get to you because your values may be different to some of theirs. You are the only Fair Isle blogger, you are in our gang.......I hope this doesn't come across as arrogant, all the best.
Nic from Coll
KKTwitcher - made me laugh out loud! Sweetie - I'm sure it will pass - you really such a lovely person I cannot even begin to see why all 70 don't adore and worship you - they should you know. We may not be neighbours but you know where I am if you need - the world is a much smaller place online. {{{hugs}}} from us all.
Peri from Brighton
Feeling better today, himself the fireman is home (along with 3 bags of kit needing laundered ! and a soaked set of Blue's). Have to get used to the fact that the hardest part about living here is that when it gets down to it, we are alone. We may live among 70 other folks, but, we have only ourselves to count as friends. One needs to rebuilt those walls of steel & harden up to it I guess. Dreading this next year, just finished the sums & unless we can make some serious cuts in the household budget (heating etc) we wont get so much as a daytrip off the isle next year, but it will let us save up for 2 new pedigree heifers.
Angela from Fair Isle
FI, Chin up. The other bloggers took time and provided some good advice. Clearly, they care about you. This should tell you something, the very least being that you are not alone. Life is tough, but fight it out (or let the bell ring, take time out before you hop into the fray again). Good luck.
mjc from NM,USA
hello there my brother was a lighthousekeeper on fairisle , he married a girl called ella stout they had four sons john, david, george and peter, all were taught in the one room school,now have proffesions as customs, electrician, nuclear hydro and theatre tech, no bad for a wee island eh? , i see uncle george is still to the fro!ella and johnny had a bash at running the post office,i travelled to fairisle on my own when i was 11 years old all the way from glasgow, i cant imagine my grand children manageing that! ...kids are totally spoiled nowadays!
jeanette from canada
when I'm really down I want to emigrate - to New Zealand - and spend a lot of time researching that! And yes, I've made contact with Carol! Last week I bought a honeysuckle plant - 拢11.99 or so - and planted it in a sheltered bit of my bare garden... beside my shed. Day 1: the wind blew form the south, it ought to have been sheltered, but by late morning the plant was lying on the ground. We tied it up. Day 2: it blew sideways. We tied it firmer. Day 3,4,5 and 6 the North wind blew cold and strong. The honey suckle is still standing, like a doomed prisoner waiting for the firing squad. its leaves are black, and withered. BUT its still there!!! and am I fed up with the weather - you bet i am!
scallowawife from still in the book of wise words...
Scallowawife, your therapy is the very opposite of mine. On bad days I try to do only things I like doing (where possible, which it isn't always!) on the grounds that it might make me feel better! Hope you're feeling a bit more cheerful today, FiiS.
Jill from EK
Drink!
Flying Cat from on the wine rack
well said FC
carol from fed up with rain,thunder etc!