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When Australian Matt Ottley was a child in Papua New Guinea he heard voices that weren't there. The macho culture of his family meant Matt never spoke about what was happening to him – boys were supposed to be 'tough'. He loved music from a young age, and saw colours when he heard sound. But his synaesthesia could also be a sign his mental health was worsening. And without anyone in his family to talk to about the mania and depression he could sometimes feel, he stayed silent. Until years later, while working on a remote cattle farm in Australia, Matt had a terrifying encounter with a wild bull that made him realise a different life was possible. Today Matt is a successful artist, composer and author whose latest project is called The Tree of Ecstasy and Unbearable Sadness.

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Presenter: Jo Fidgen
Producer: May Cameron

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(Photo: Matt Ottley. Credit: Matt Ottley)