17.02.03 Every
time I start a film I think, 'I can't act' - Nicole Kidman
Oscar nominee Nicole Kidman exclusively reveals in this week's
Radio Times her deep phobia of acting, her parents' feelings about
her career, as well as her own thoughts about the endless attention
she receives form the public and media.
The Hours star tells Radio Times she feels very insecure every
time she begins planning a new movie. "It's weird because every
time I start a film I think,'I can't act.' I've tried to pull out
of almost every one I've done because of sheer terror," she
claims. "I can always come up with a list of actresses who
would be better, and try to convince the director to cast someone
else by showing the list."
Kidman, who was born in Hawaii but raised in Australia, also says
her parents laugh and roll their eyes at her success. "Compliments
don't flow that easily. My mother keeps telling me to call it quits.
She thinks my nature is too fragile for acting. She'd love it if
I was a writer and had a more secluded life. I agree," she
confesses. "My parents didn't come to the Academy Awards when
I was nominated for Moulin Rouge because they were on a bush-walking
trek. I asked them to cancel it, but they refused."
However, when Radio Times asks her whether she's thinking of giving
up acting, Kidman says: "In another eight years I hope I'll
have reached the stage where my creativity has peaked. Everything
comes together at a certain time, and then it dissipates. Gone.
It's all ephemeral. Ambition - who cares ultimately? If you'd asked
me a few years ago if I could walk away, I'd have said yes. I wouldn't
want to at the moment because this is the only way of expressing
the feelings inside me."
i>This interview is taken from the 22-28 February issue of Radio
Times, on sale Tuesday, February 18th.
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